Driving in my truck one sunny afternoon the Holy Spirit called me a whore. I was shocked and then I realized it was true.
I have used the word whore a few times in my life to describe certain pop culture idols. In conversation with friends I might say for shock value so and so is a whore in my opinion.
As I remembered this one day driving in my truck. The Spirit started to minister to me by telling me why I had chosen such a dramatic word to describe another human being. It was simple, I was projecting myself. The Spirit said you are the whore and you are projecting your own brokenness onto these people. Ouch was my initial response and then I realized how true it was.
Processing this led to great freedom. Loving God with all of my heart but yet bending to this crave called lust and pornography at certain times. Basically a whore, loving God but also keeping a hidden pleasure in the relationship. God was jealous and he wants to fulfill all my needs.
So it feels great to not be a whore anymore but just like an alcoholic recovering from addiction so it is with anyone addicted to porn. It is a day by day journey.
But porn is not the point, it was my own brokenness that was craving to be healed. I was longing for peace. Life is way more fun now. My mind is free and it is amazing!
So I will never forget the day God called me a whore. And I will walk out in humility this thing called freedom.
